God Bless the Weight Loss Gods

Wow i know I just did this long post about how bad I've been and how the next time i went to weight watchers I would have gained a zillion pounds. But I went tonight and in the last two weeks i have lost 4 lbs. I really do not know how this is possible. Someone up there must like me. I was already coming up with excuses not to make it tonight. But I knew Jenny would not be happy that I didn't come. And when she called me at 5:20 and I was face deep in a snow cone, I knew I was caught banana berry handed and had to go.

And I'm glad I did, because of the good news and its good to face the music. And luckily that music was good. I've gone about two months in weight watchers without ever gaining and i am blessed.

As par usual me and Jenny went out after weight watchers for our post Tuesday night pre-mediated binge. But I guess my stomach has shrunk because i can't eat as much as I once did, and over eating just isn't as appealing to me anymore. And eating that much just makes me feel like crap physically.

I am still grossly overweight but I can see the finish line. I always wanted to loose weight but never had the tools. i feel more confident in myself now, i feel i can do this. Also, I realize my weight is truly just a number. And that's why I post it on this blog. It's a number that doesn't change who I am as a person. At first I thought I don't want my friends to know, but I realize it doesn't matter. My friends love all 300 lbs of me, and now I have to love me too.

Life is good on this side,
Britt

Why I've been a bad, bad girl

A million reasons why my diet has sucked these past two weeks:

1. Somehow I twisted my ankle so I couldn’t walk or do anything really strenuous. I did do Pilates but that’s not cardio.

2. I went home for Easter and there was no food in the house, so I didn’t shop and ate whatever we had.

3. Can we say Easter Reece’s Peanut butter eggs?
4. I got sick, really sick this week. I did not feel like doing anything but lying on the couch and eating fast food and that is exactly what I did. Double cheeseburgers and mcnuggets.

5. This morning I got sick, and threw up a lean cuisine stir fry, which is the worst tasting food you could ever throw up.

6. Being sick meant I didn’t exercise. Combine that with fast food and that spells RELAPSE.

7. I came back to school, but ordered a whole pizza out of exhaustion and laziness. And ate all of said pizza with accompanying chicken strips.

I’ll be back on track tomorrow. But I think I will skip the weigh in, or I will get disappointed. But maybe this will trick my metabolism and a week on my diet will get me back on track. And I'll loose a lot of weight.

Brittany

Flying off the wagon

So kind of last minute I decided to come home for the long easter weekend. Mostly because my mother and John are in texas, so i thought i would be nice to sleep in my own bed, watch satellite, and use the tivo. So I got up yesterday and get mcdonald's for lunch cause it was convinent (bad). I also woke up with a sore throat and also what felt like a sinus headache. But it wasn't bad enough for me not to head home. An hour into the drive I got progressivly worse, I even thought of turning around. But instead I just stopped got some sinus stuff, but this did not help and I got worse. I got home finally, and fell asleep watching tv. By the time I got up I had a 100 degree fever, was nausated, headache, body ache, and just all over flu. Being in capable of food shopping or preparing anything I ordered a pizza (worse) and ate 1/3 of a pint of ben and jerrys (yikes)

And today I don't feel much better. We didn't have food in the house and I was too exhausted to deal with the wal-mart easter crowd so I went to food world instead. So Ive eaten off my diet all week and haven't been able to excerize and that is driving nuts. Because I was doing so well. I'm not going to give up, and I'm not going to beat myself up too bad. But still it irks me.

Britt

P.s.-if you find that lung I coughed up bring it back, please.

Trips , Slips, and Future Plans

So my weigh in was last night and I maintained, I would have rather have lost but I lost a lot of weight last week so it is OK. Plus I twisted my ankle somehow (no recollection of this) which has spoiled my walking plans. But hopefully it will heal soon.

But anyway, last night I went out with jenny, jana, and austin for our weekly cheat meal at pizza hut and then to sonic for shakes. This is all well and good. But today I was lazy and didn't have a lot of food in my dorm, so i ordered a pizza an chicken strips. Why oh why, did I do that. But I guess its just a misstep, I'm not going to beat myself up over it but I am going to go to the gym today. So maybe with flex points and activity points it will all even out.

I was reading in the weight watchers booklet about a girl who rewarded herself every time she reached one of her mini goals. I thought that was a good idea so I will do that. My first thought was to celebrate with food, but then I realized that was counter productive. Tee Hee.

So at 300, I will get my hair high-lighted. I love when my hair is high lighted and I'm no longer a dirty blonde. But it is pricey.

At 270, I will invest in some new clothes. Sexy Dresses and such. And of course, Shoes. How girly do I sound now.

And then at 240, I will get some glamour pictures taken I've always wanted to do that! And I feel like that is when I will be feeling the best about myself.

Well off to work out,
Britt

This is my confession

The other day a friend of mine Lark came down the hall and gave me an plastic egg filled with Easter candy. I thought how sweet, and then she said, "I'm sorry if this will ruin your diet." Some reason this had not occurred to me. So i figured I could space out eating the candy and still stay on points. But I knew I couldn't so i threw it all away. I feel awful. Don't tell on me!

Britt

And I would walk 500 miles

If you have been around me in the last few months you have probably heard me lament, " I hate to walk." And this is true, but if you ask me why I will tell you I find it boring. That is a white lie.

To me it is odd that people typically choose walking as their form of exercise. They say it is low impact, not too difficult, and rather enjoyable. This is as confusing to me as those problems you have to figure out in algebra about if this plane leaves New York going such and such miles per hours and another plane leaves Los Angeles at this many miles apart, when will the collide. And honestly, I would only be concerned about the plane collision problem if I was on the plane.

I find walking long distances extremely difficult even after I ditch my flip flops for my pretty, new balances. I can bike 40 min and do cardio till I collapse. But when walking even after a short distance my calves feel as if they are locking up, and the longer I walk the more painful it gets. Little breaks do little to help this situation. It also irks me that my chubby friends do not have these problems.

I have a friend named Katie (not chubby) who on Mondays we always walk to class together. She is around 6 feet tall with killer, long legs. By the time I get to front campus, which is only about 7/10 a mile I am huffing, puffing, sore, and trying to hide it. I don't know why I care if she notices. Sometimes i think I believe if she does not hear me huff and puff she won't possible notice that I am overweight and out of shape. (how crazy I am)

Holy Cow, its taking me a long time to get to this point. OK, In Columbus there is a walking trail called the river walk. It is a mile and a half each way. Most of friends like to walk there, but I have avoided it like the plague. Claiming I'm too tired, too lazy, have to much work, etc etc. But really I am afraid I won't be able to keep up.

But last weekend me and the girls went to various places to take some nice pics, and this is one of the places we went.

I was amazed by how pretty it was. So I decided to try to walk it solo the next day. So with only my walking shoes, a bottle of water, and my ipod playing annoying pop songs that I would only admit to liking if a gun was pointed at my head, I forged ahead.

I must say I enjoyed the walk even though it took me 80 minutes to walk the three miles, and I had to take several breaks. At the end, i felt such a sense of accomplishment. Slow and steady wins the race I guess. I also got to take in the pretty scenery.

Not to mention all the families, joggers, and dogs I get to watch while I walk. I'm a total people watcher. Really I am, it's on the verge of being a stalker, this is why I'm going into therapy. Stalking and getting paid for it!

Yesterday, I did the river walk again, and I got my time down to about 60 minutes of actual walking and took fewer breaks. Already Progress!

Will I be tagging a long with my friends to go walking any time soon? Nah, But I am going to walk 3x a week. I realize since it the kind of working out that is hardest for me, it should be the type I work on. Who knows maybe one day I'll be jogging. Never mind, One day I will by jogging!

Brittany

I can have my pasta and eat it too!

I just wanted to post these and than explain what i am doing to follow these guidelines.

7 Habits of People Who Lose Weight and Keep it Off
- from "CNN Presents: Fat Chance" based on research by Dr. Jim Hill, Director, Center for Human Nutrition, University of Colorado

1) Expect failure, but keep trying
I have been lucky thus far as I have not experienced "failure." Or at least I have never gained weight or simply only maintained weight, I have always had at least a one pound weight loss. But I have failed in splurging on fast food or just not working out (sometimes i feel a nap sounds better). But i try not to beat myself up over these facts, and I just start over again the next day.

Its easy to screw up one day and then never start again. That will not be me. I fully expect I will gain a little weight at some point. And I will be OK with that. In weight watchers we say, "this is not a diet, but a lifestyle change." But to me it still feels like a diet. :)

2) Don't deny yourself
This is the rule I most agree with. Yes I can deprive myself of junk food for now but I will not be able to avoid these foods for the rest of my life. I have to learn to eat what I want within reason. It's all about portion control. Plus, if I deny myself the foods I really want, i do not only end up eating what I want but an horrendously, shameful amount. But I have to state that now that I am living healthier lifestyle I have stopped craving a lot of my favorite foods. Chalk that up to education. I read that label on a box of pizza rolls and then it isn't even worth it.

3) Weigh yourself often
I really can't say I agree with this rule. But this also depends on person's personal definition of "often." I would say that weighing yourself everyday is overdoing it. Your weight can fluctuate so much for so many reasons. But I do think weighing yourself once a week is advisable. Plus then you get that shock of losing a lot :)

4) Exercise regularly
Uh, well duh.

5) Find ways to add little bits of physical activity into your daily routine
I really have not added this step to my daily routine. But I have decided to start taking the stairs to my dorm room instead of taking the elevator. That is three flights of stairs, I am typically huffing and puffing at the top! To be honest, I decided to take the stairs a few days ago. But every time I get back to the dorm I conveniently forget.


6) Eat a high carbohydrate, low fat diet
I can only assume I really am doing this on weight watchers. Since low weight watcher point foods are low fat foods that don't skimp on carbs. And I love Pasta so I know I'm getting those carbs. In your face, Dr. Atkins. I can have my pasta and eat it too! And if I'm not following this rule , I don't care because weight watchers is working for me and that is all that matters.

7) Eat about five meals a day starting with breakfast.
For the most part I do, I tend to eat about four mini meals with snacks in between. By doing this, I don't get that hungry (therefore fending off cravings)and my body doesn't think I'm starving myself and freak out my metabolism.

All in all I think these steps are common sense but very important guidelines for any diet.

Britt

P.s-On a side note, I've been on points and worked out everyday this week! Yay Me!